Hey chatterseeds!! Have you ever really taken time to think about the things you are thankful for? I don’t do it nearly as often as I should. However, this week I randomly had the thought to start a little gratitude notebook. Usually when I think of gratitude journals I make it way too complicated. It can feel like you have to follow all of these rules like how many things you have to list and you HAVE to do it everyday. This time, I just genuinely wanted to write down a couple of the things I am grateful for and throughout the week I pulled it out and wrote in it. I didn’t do it everyday but the moments I did, it grounded me. I am a person with a LOT of anxiety. I have therapy and meds which is super great and all, but that really only mitigates it and helps to cope, it never just disappears. But there are moments when I do feel a sense of calm and peace and one of those is when I was writing in my little gratitude notebook.
This week was a bit of a struggle in the overthinking department. I had a really fun date last week and this guy is super cute and super sweet but, he takes FOREVER to respond. That part doesn’t completely bother me since when he does respond and when we went out the conversations were always awesome. What is making me anxiously overthink, is the fact that we discussed a second date to pick up our ceramics from the first date. We went to Color Me Mine*, a super fun place where you go and paint ceramics and then pick them up about a week later after they’ve been glazed and fired! It was super cute and a really fun time. I painted a little gingerbread ornament like the character Gingy from Shrek (one of my all time favorite movies). Anyways, he just hasn’t gotten back to me in a couple of days which isn’t unusual, but I guess I’m just super excited to go out again since I’ve been overthinking it so much haha.
Actually, the way we met is a really funny and kind of embarrassing story. So I work at a Starbucks which is like, the best job ever, and a new car wash just opened up across the street. The car wash had sign twirlers posted throughout various points along both sides of the street to advertise their new opening and one really cold morning one of the sign twirlers was near our drive-thru window. I thought I should bring him some hot cocoa to keep him warm so I brought a cup out to him. I thought he was cute and came back in the store and told my coworkers and they were all telling me I should have given him my number. I protested claiming it would be totally embarrassing but ended up taking him a water cup with my name and number on it. Throughout my shift I would occasionally look over at him sign twirling and as it got warmer he took of his hat and gloves and at one moment, I SAW A WEDDING RING!!! I was absolutely MORTIFIED. I mean sure yes how was I supposed to know, but still, incredibly embarrassing. The rest of the day I avoided making eye contact. However, later in the afternoon I got a text from the guy telling me thanks for the cocoa and that he’s married, but, he has a coworker who is super fun and nice and wondered if he could pass my number along to him! I thought that was so sweet and said sure, why not? I mean, what have I got to lose right guys? So his friend texted me and thus I met my date.
Anyways chatterseeds, my biggest takeaways from this week are that I want to practice gratitude more, it’s okay to be anxious but it doesn’t need to rule my life, and everyone is going through and doing their own things.
Thanks for reading, love you all!! </3
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