Hey chatterseeds! It has been a couple weeks, my apologies. While I am striving to be more consistent, I’m still a person like the rest of you and I have had some tragedy fall in the last couple of weeks.
I won’t go into too much detail, but I had a very dear friend pass away and this has just absolutely wrecked me. I am young enough that I have been lucky to have not experienced a loss or grief like this until now. However, this is just horrible, chatterseeds. Processing is nonexistent, my mind does not want it to be real and neither does my heart. While it comes in waves, as grief does, it did not feel truly real until the funeral service itself. The best way I can describe the service is beautifully devastating. It was difficult to begin with but when my friend’s brother spoke, it just absolutely broke my heart. Overall, the service was beautiful and did my friend justice though she of course, deserves so much more. I just have to take comfort in the fact that she is in a much better place now getting the help that she needs. It is also comforting to know that while I will never see her again in this life, I have faith I will see her again in the next and that is a day that I am eager to see.
Since the funeral was in the state where I grew up, I got to see two other very close friends and that was wonderful and much needed. One is my best friend from high school who now goes to school across the country. It is rare we are in the same city let alone the same state so it was really nice to be able to catch up and spend some time together. The other friend I grew up with, we’ve known each other since we were in diapers. We went to dinner with our families and then went hot tubing since I have really missed having public pools that are easily accessible. The only negative was that while we were hanging out, I was stung by a bee. Like come on, a bee? What was a bee doing out and about at 9pm and why was I the chosen victim? Do not fret chatterseeds for I am all right I just have a slightly swollen rash area. Totally gross I know but at least I am not extremely allergic.
chatterseeds, the last two weeks have been quite eventful to say the least. I am grateful for the friends and family I have around me that have supported me in the difficulties I have been experiencing. I am especially grateful for the support they have provided all year long. It just occurred to me that this will be my last post of 2024. Isn’t that weird?? I suppose I should do a year wrap up type of thing so here goes:
2024 what a year it has been. New diagnoses and medicines and therapies. New friends, new classes, new majors and new jobs. New hobbies and new skills. New passions and old passions, love and loss. Some highlights? Working at Starbucks, switching my major to Communications, rekindling an old friendship, seeing old friends, making a few new close friends. More piercings and adventures. Some lowlights? Losing a friend, financial instability, paralyzing depression, and relationship tensions. This year had it all and though it was all very difficult, both the good and bad, I am grateful. I am grateful for the love and support I have been blessed with. I also, am proud of myself. I have come a long way from January me to December me. I cannot wait to see what 2025 brings.
Thanks for joining me on the adventure that is my life, buckle up chatterseeds, into 2025 we go. </3