Oh chatterseeds, a thousand apologies. Preexisting depression mixed with grief do not make a good combo. My goal is to be more consistent so even though I was going to wait to post until this weekend, I thought I might as well post now or I might keep procrastinating it. One thing I am learning about in my attempts to be a presence in social media is consistency. Consistency is key, I have to post something on schedule every time even if it isn’t the best quality. This way I get consistent.
Along with consistencies, boy stories. Remember the nice guy I mentioned last time chatterseeds? Well that did not pan out. He was nice but we just didn’t vibe romantically which is totally okay. That was my first time ever friendzoning a guy in person which was kind of scary. But, I am the type of person that has to be straight up about whatever it is I’m feeling ASAP, I can’t lie and drag things out. He took it well and things have been chill between us. Other than that? Nothing. I decided to take a little pause from the apps anyways because it was depressing me and making me feel more lonely than I already was.
Grief has been difficult chatterseeds. The one month mark for my friend passing away happened a couple of days ago and a wave of sadness just hit me out of nowhere. That was a hard day. I’m working through it though.
I started procrastinating schoolwork already. It’s barely been a week and a half chatterseeds and I am already falling back into my negative school habits. It’s okay though, after I’m finished writing this post I am going to sit down and force myself to do some homework chatterseeds. I’m getting restless. It’s hard to enjoy reading or watching a TV show anymore without feeling bored out of my mind. Right now I’m watching Criminal Minds. It’s a pretty good show but I think I slightly prefer NCIS.
Anyways chatterseeds I’m just mindlessly blabbering now so I’ll let ya go. Thanks for sticking with me y’all. </3